||[Jan. 9th, 2005|01:40 pm]
Unmotivated students. Unsure graduates. Us.
This community sounds like it fits me. I'm a 20 y/o that keeps telling himself and his friends and family that he's going to college to pursue an engineering degree. I've changed my mind from computer science, to electrical engineering, to accounting even. I'm stuck in a liberal arts college in my hometown that feels like a high school. I have maintained above a 3.5 GPA the past year and a half in this college, but I doubt I've actually learned anything. I doubt that if I transfer over to a REAL university to start my engineering courses that I will crack. I live at home with my parents, studying and pissin away my time with computer games while on a scholarship to go to this shitty school. |
I suppose that when I began this dream of being an engineer or computer programmer, I felt that because I loved messing with computers and did well in high school, I would enjoy that. Now I'm beginning to see that's not really enough justification. Am I truly interested in mathematics, etc.....not really. Sure, I look like I could pull it off with my GPA now, but I've only been through Cal II...just getting the core stuff done at this small college. I'm unsure to say the least.
Half of me wants to ride this scholarship, get some accounting degree from this school, etc. Other half wants to see how far I can take this engineering thing and transfer. Meh. I dread differential equations this semester. At least the rest of my courses are accounting courses.
Hope to see this community pick up once the semester kicks back in...I've got to get used to being around people again after this long winter break. College starts up tomorrow.